I am……
As you all know, I had a bit of a virus thingy going on, and then my back went last week!
I thought a day or two of painkillers and gentle movement, and I would be feeling just fine and dandy in no time…….Mmmm, not so.
I had hoped to do my presentation to the Mindfulness group in Nottingham, but there was no way I could make it – I hate letting people down, but I had to realise that I just couldn’t manage it.
Thursday morning I did my 3 classes, and by Thursday afternoon I was exhausted again. In fact, this whole week I have found tiring, but, not only that, I have had brain fog most of the week…… It culminated in me missing my train down to London (to do the Osteoporosis course that I had so been looking forward too), not I hasten to add because I was late, those of you who know me know that I am never late – that just isn’t my style. I missed the train as I was standing on the wrong platform, gazing at the train on the other platform and idly wondering where it was going!!!
Yes, I was a little annoyed with myself, I had had to get cover for my classes, pay for the course and train tickets and couldn’t go due to my silly mistake.
However, the reality was that I had missed my train, and there is no point arguing with reality as it wins every time, so home I went and looked forward to a day catching up on all the admin type jobs that I had simply not been able to do last week 🙂 To be honest, that felt just great as I like to be on top of everything and I needed to do some planning and intention setting for the next quarter.
Anyway, my point is this – yes, I am still quite tired, I am never ill and being ill and taking a day or so off made me realise that I have not been listening to my own advice and have been working too hard!
We can all be guilty of this, we prioritise work so often and not ourselves, we tell ourselves stories to convince us that we need to work harder, longer, that there is only us that can do it etc etc.
It’s just NOT true.
We all have choices, always – though we like to think we don’t. We have to stop and question the stories we tell ourselves – is that really true? Or are we just using excuses to keep us stuck exactly where we are?
I realised that I do have to make some changes, that I can make the changes, that sometimes it feels scary to make changes….but that’s when the really great stuff happens, that it is totally my choice, and I – and only I – have to be accountable for that. I also realised how quickly I was able to make these decisions and how stress free these decisions were to me now.
Working on my Mindset has and continues to improve every aspect of my life – love it!
So, take some time these Easter holidays for YOU, do the things that make your heart sing, do the things that make you feel alive, as I’m always saying life should be happy – so let it be 🙂